Fear is Real!

And can be ever present when making music.

Insecurities for me were pretty loud in my mind’s chatter while in college.  College age is of course ripe for that as one is right on the border of being a real man but still a child.   The best relief I had from this affliction was to just observe it and try my best to not let it come out in my playing.   This means listening back to recordings!  I remember being “in my head” at last nights gig.  I remember thinking… am I slowing down?… I listen to the show… seems ok.  This would prove that because its in my head doesn’t mean it’s coming out in my playing.  This means.. no need to fight the chatter, carry it with you and  just play on!  This fearful chatter would slowly dissipate through the years as I gained more experience as a musician and a human.   But I will forever know… negative thoughts in my head doesn’t necessarily manifest in my playing.  This can be calming and relaxing and a good reminder to not take this stuff too seriously!